Finding out if you are pregnant or not can be daunting. Whether you are trying to conceive or if you are just wanting a baby but not sure when the right time will be. So you are just going through life with the “if it happens, it happens” mentality. From personal experience, it seems as though leaving it up to fate is the easiest way to do it….
It was August 17th. I was 3 days late for my period, but I still wanted to give it time. I know… 3 days?!? You’ve got to be pregnant. But after the first day, I thought to myself that maybe it’s just a coincidence. I’ll see if it comes tomorrow. Tomorrow comes and goes. Still nothing. So day 3 with no period arrives and I’m feeling a little nauseous. Didn’t really want to eat anything all day.
The end of my work day comes and I had made the decision that I am going to take a pregnancy test just to see if I’m pregnant. What are the odds its positive, right? I know I am in my late 20s and I have been with my then boyfriend for 6 years. But for some reason buying a pregnancy test still felt wrong. I ran in and out of Target with my pregnancy tests in less than 5 minutes. I was so afraid someone would see me doing something suspicious.
I was driving home and started to feel nauseous from what I had eaten, but again. What are the chances??? I drove home, and was going to wait to take the tests in the morning. But I was already 3 days late. It would show up if I’m pregnant. I’m home alone when I take the tests. After I take them, I flip them over so I can’t see what lies ahead in my future.
3 minutes pass and it’s time. I flip them over and shock washes over me. I am shaking. I am crying. I can’t believe my eyes. I am going to be a mom.
My boyfriend is gone, but it’s late so I don’t have time to go out and prepare something cute to tell him we’re pregnant. So I just set the tests on his night stand and let him find them. When he gets home, I’m in bed scrolling my phone. He walks in the room and immediately looks at his nightstand and says, “what’s that?”. He looks at the tests and he is the most excited I have ever seen him.
He always wanted to be a dad and he always joked if I felt off, he would say, “you’re pregnant”. But this time, it wasn’t a joke. It was actually true. He jumped for joy. Took pictures with the test. Talked to the growing baby in my belly. He couldn’t wait. Then I texted my best friend with a picture of my tests….
The message back still boggles my mind. She was pregnant too. And tested the exact same time I did. I think God planned it that way. So we could go through it together and have each other through the difficult times as well as the joys of pregnancy.
So after that, there were only 2 people in this whole world that knew our very special secret. We couldn’t wait to share it with the rest of the world. You’ll get to read that experience at a different time. I will say this though. Those tik tok videos you see of the women finding out they are pregnant, that feeling is indescribable. Sometimes, I miss it. I can’t wait to experience it again when have our 2nd baby. Call me crazy, but I would do it tomorrow if the opportunity presented itself. Does the scariness of it all ever go away? I’m not sure, but does the lifetime of joy stop? No.